A preview and a view !!

Once again , it comes .....a brand new exciting year ........what shape it would take is anybody's guess.........it would be superb.........in terms of the challenges it would throw to the denizens of a truly globalised world .........a common playground of a little speck of the Universe- Earth ....... In my opinion man is the victim or the saviour of his own greed ....This year proved that to the core ....The steep fall of the economic indicators due to the inflated bubble of packaged programs of excess returns once again proved that commonsense is at its ebb and materialistic tendencies of few tend to ruin the lives of lesser mortals though we claim all human beings to be in principle equal ....... The message of the events is sublime .......do not carried away in search of the heavens without working hard for it ..........
Anyways .........the events that happen are always for the better - to enlighten the species to help them avoiding mistakes going forward ........To put it in perspective ........I wish to analyze the same for the bygone seconds ....................My failures (and indeed many for the past )

1. Taking learning less seriously - this won't work in future I have to learn , unlearn and relearn to keep myself in the game ............if I can't its better to move out
2. Utilizing the available time efficiently to give more output and less of junk , if u want to be a routine doer ........and dont wish to enthrall yrself ........I think its no fun ..........I have to do things a little more in depth .........with new ways of dealing with situations and great committment ......
3. Let go of the " Comfort factor" - and plunge into riskier , exciting and unchartered territories ......I think I should be ready for some focussed , hard stuff .

Successes /right approach would be the following

1.Enjoying the journey rather than the result .......................glad that I did it more this year however I have been complacent at times - to be avoided
2. I took better care of my health and well being , ate much gained weight and took minimal stress
3. Was rational and better prepared (more flexible) and managed things better

My Goals for 2009 would be :

1.Settle personal issues WIN WIN for all ( a big challenge indeed .....)
2. Write a small story to begin with and get it published
3. Contribute more for the betterment of society and colleagues
4. Exercise more and sleep optimally ( I have been very lazy this year !!)
5. Put my business ideas slowly into practice .....I feel I am not ready yet ...........but need to take the plunge .......need to train more
6.Be more truthful and honest ( at least to myself )
7. Prepare for my Mount Everest climb by testing the snow .............(lets see how I do it !!)

Musings of a carefree mind

Learning to write…….again !! Yep , like a 3 year old , trying to understand the alphabets yet again ………the hidden meaning of sentences ………the art of conversation and self enlightenment ………..Nowadays I have become more lazy , laidback and careless (probably carefree) …….more than any period in my somewhat significant life……may be the illusion of achievement and arrogance of self confidence brings in me a state of mind of loosening up …….I don’t know ! Maybe it is what I wanted …..and as we know most likely we, the humans get “what we want” – sometimes a dangerous thing !! Sleeping a lot …..lazing around ………….seeing things with disinterest ……that is what I am doing now ……………….no plan , no budgeting , no nothing …….just going along a serpentine track of life !! 35 years of life have left me gasping for fresh air which eludes the senses………..May be I am turning old ……towards the logical progression of death or may be towards everyouth die hard gumption !! It seems to me that one is really a product of his own thoughts – he only makes himself or the society what he wants himself / it to be ……it is a very subtle but true thing and we see it all the time in our lives ……the criminals ….the businessmen …..the sportsman ………..all ….they are because they think they are !! Trying to figure out where do I belong ?? Taken a pretty long time eh!!

Life@2008..............

Another year has passed , like dots on a page ……. Silently , surreptiously ………beautifully . I have lived 35 valuable years on the planet earth ……..ready for more ……….I am trying to define myself all these years as to what type of a person am I and surprisingly my defintions keep on changing every single year ………..still trying to figure out ..what do I like to do ??? What drives my behaviour ……..when am I honest and when dishonest to my ownself …and to the world ……….am I as simple as I think myself of being or am I corrupt like many of us ??? Truthful questions require truthful answers …………..can I be truthful ???

New Year To me !!

The New Year comes…………………………….
Spreading its wings ………….
Fresh energy, new outlook ……………..
For the future ………………..
Sometimes I wonder ………………………
When I live a year long ………………
So many days …….countless seconds …………….
I feel as I have lived ……………….
So many lives …………………….
And then again I wonder ……………..
Did I live them to the full ………………
With zest , with passion , with honesty to myself …………………
Giving each second my precious best …………………..
Did I count the stars in the clear grey sky ………………..
Did I inhale the freshness of sea air …………..
Did I wander carelessly on a quiet sunny afternoon
Did I sleep and dreamt of Utopia ……………………
Did I listen to the chirping of the sparrow on the tree …………
Did I feel the caress of the falling rain droplet on my body
Did I feel the soft blameless skin of a month old baby …………….
Did I forget myself in my own world sometime ……………
The moments came and went ……………….
The stars shined , the butterflies blossomed
The seas roared , the trees swayed …………
The cuckoo sang , the grasshopper flew………
And the moments came and went ………….
Ha , I lost many ……….I gained some …………..
The New Year comes……………
Giving me yet another chance …………………
When ………………………
The stars will shine…………
…………………….
New Year to me ………..!!

Pondicherry diaries !!

Yet again , I am embarking upon a journey ………….probably for rediscovering my self . At times I lose myself to the world …..and again it is the same world I approach with a different expectation to deburden myself (ha……I call myself burdened …is it correct ???). I seriously thought about Pondicherry when I saw John Abraham roaming the streets of this small Union Territory in the movie “ Jism” , strange ….how do some things impact you in a subconscious way ………..to say the least …………..when I could think of no other new place to visit …………I thought of Pondicherry ………….well not at all to disparage this wonderful picturesque gem of a place with really warm people and spick & span streets ( a rare sight in the polluted Mumbai ………) I took 4 days leave from office and booked the flights and accommodation and zoom I find myself here …………..Pondicherry , the erstwhile French colony ……….in fact when I started my exploration bit of this small territory , I was pretty impressed by the design of the town , immediately I remembered Goa , which though a little bit different is almost all similar in terms of overall architecture , same small criss cross streets , clean surroundings , happy people bright and clear blue skies (which probably I have seen after eons) and the fresh misty sea breeze that touches and invigorates not only the body but the soul too………I felt like a happy child indeed …to be near nature after quite a long period of time ………..alone with myself ……….all the busy schedules, deadlines and hardships of professional life just melted away ……………….May be this holiday will move me to some interesting direction …………ha……..I always expect from Life !!! And it always amazes me to see that my Life is very true to itself …………It always gives me options – the good or the bad ………….at times or to be precise most of the times I do go for the bad options  but then when I go for good options for living my life ……(like being true to myself , being nice to fellow beings , being selfless and the toughest of them all – being honest) I realize the importance of what a happy soul can achieve !! Achievement does not intend to capture material gains or wealth ….but a desire to be free of burdens and lead a simple life …………….sometimes I do wonder how complicated it is to lead a “simple, innocent” life ……….why do I fail everytime in dong that ???The good thing is I can feel that I am faltering so that I can mend my ways  Coming back to my present existence ie Pondicherry ……………..I feel I belonged to this place some time of my life ……….to say the least I believe every place I visit has a connection somewhere , some time , some age …….am I being fatalistic ???? I don’t know !! Journey seems to be exciting and enchanting , and I am looking forward to it ……………………..Adios !!

The Poem

Promise

As the time passes by .................
There comes a thought ........
Of moments spent .......
Of future to come .........
Smile I will.......................
At the eccentricities of Life.....
Cry I will.....................
At the kindness of God.......